Once Olivia fell asleep, after last night's marathon of feedings, she slept for five straight hours! She woke up around 7 o'clock and even then it was mostly me waking her up to make sure that she was okay. We had a nice sleepy morning and finally roused ourselves around noon. We spent most of the day connecting with our family - we talked to Nana on the phone, skyped with Mimi & Kari and later with Natalie. What a great way to spend the day!
Olivia seems to be having bad baby dreams today. She'll be dozing peacefully and then suddenly wakes up wailing, as if the world is ending. I wonder what these terrible nightmares are about - are other babies trying to steal her milk? What frightens my poor baby so? She is quickly comforted by being held close and feeling my skin, my cheek, my breath close to her or by holding my hand. I'm glad I can 'fix' it, but it stills surprises me when she wakes up with such a start. I wish I could erase all the bad dreams. I know that I won't always be able to fix everything, but for now I'm going to be there every moment that I can & keep her close & let her know how much she is loved. I've been repeating to her all day a mantra of all the people who love her; saying their names, "Daddy loves you. Nana loves you. Mimi loves you. Aunty Kari loves you. Poppy loves you. I love you," etc. I hope it helps her - it helps me.
Tonight Leanne came over with a lovely dinner - a cheesy tomato dish. So delicious! It's a good thing I've become adept at eating with one hand! I've been holding Olivia for a couple hours and she should be waking up soon to eat again. Right now, she's asleep in her 'nest'...but I don't trust that that will last very long - going by today's record. She doesn't seem to be fooled into thinking I'm still holding her, no matter how artfully I arrange the blankets or position her. So this is going to be a very short entry. Got to take care of my most precious gift!
Olivia seems to be having bad baby dreams today. She'll be dozing peacefully and then suddenly wakes up wailing, as if the world is ending. I wonder what these terrible nightmares are about - are other babies trying to steal her milk? What frightens my poor baby so? She is quickly comforted by being held close and feeling my skin, my cheek, my breath close to her or by holding my hand. I'm glad I can 'fix' it, but it stills surprises me when she wakes up with such a start. I wish I could erase all the bad dreams. I know that I won't always be able to fix everything, but for now I'm going to be there every moment that I can & keep her close & let her know how much she is loved. I've been repeating to her all day a mantra of all the people who love her; saying their names, "Daddy loves you. Nana loves you. Mimi loves you. Aunty Kari loves you. Poppy loves you. I love you," etc. I hope it helps her - it helps me.
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